I read a post today, that made me stop and think. I have been blaming my depression on SAD but I have come to conclusion that I can't blame all my down moods on it. I am to blame from most of my depression. I have been so locked up in my misery that I have not seen the things that Lord has done for me. I have been blinded to blessings He has been pouring upon me and my family. I have been a slothful servant. I have taken my talents and have hidden them and not used them for good. I have been very ungrateful for the things I have.
I am a very blessed individual. I have a Heavenly Father that loves me not matter what I have done. He is there for me. He hears my cries. I want to thank Him. I am grateful that I am alive. I have the things that I need to survive. I have the comforts that others do not. I am grateful. I have a family that is always there for each other. We know that if we need help, all we have to do is ask. I am grateful. There is beauty all around, even on the dreary days, all I have to do is look for it. I need to use the eyes, that the Lord has given me, to see the good in a day. Not the bad. I am grateful.
My favorite song is "Come Thou Font". The verse I love the most is:
Here I raise my Ebenezer;
Hither by Thy help I’ve come;
And I hope, by Thy good pleasure,
Safely to arrive at home.
Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it,
Prone to leave the God I love;
Here's my heart, O take and seal it;
Seal it for Thy courts above.
I have a tendency to wander, to stray from those things I love. I wallow in misery, thinking all is lost but I know that my heart and soul have been given to the Lord. No matter how far I wander, I know that Father is there waiting for my return with open arms. For that I AM GRATEFUL.